the oh-so-good-crying feeling
♥ Friday, June 03, 2005
oh,was crying frm 135pm to 2pm..cried for half an hr..why?! its a personal matter between my dad and i..i dont wish to share abt what happened..i reached home at abt 130pm cause went out to meet my mum for lunch at westmall. switched on my comp n ya was talking to joanna..i dont know what came over me abt yesterday and i jus started to cry lahh.. i was very very angry yesterday and i flared up at my dad..u think i want to?! he was saying me until the limit..i just cldnt tolerate it and i jus flared up..dint bother wat i gona say or were to say and what/how i gona react to wat he say~ i jus cldnt tahan..then he stopped saying after i flared up, it was like a volcano EXPLODED.. i jus blah-ed out everything i had to say..if u think dat oh i can control wat to say.. the me is whatever is on my mind,i will just yank them out of my mind..cause if i keep it, a BIGGER VOLCANO will explode.. i actually felt better after yanking everything out of my mind.. what he said, i jus "closed" my ear to him.. one ear go in, the other ear go out..u can say/think dat b4 i flared up, i cld done the same thing by one ear go in, the other ear go out..but i just couldnt.. n then i remembered dat i had to "protect my new heart"..not dat i went for a heart op.haha..erm, jus a new brand new heart with no wounds n stuff..so i pretend dat i din hear anything..after i yanked all i had to say in my mind, i feel so much better..
after crying for 30mins, oh i feel so good.. like as if the wound in my heart had healed.. =) hoping it did tho.. yea!! thank God dat i actually cried for 30mins to let go of it n let the wound heal in my heart.. :) i like the "oh-so-good-crying" feeling..hehe.. yap, but im still hoping dat i'll forgive my dad soonx..erm,yeah..i feel better aft crying..
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