shocking/random news!
♥ Thursday, June 25, 2009
okay, i received a shocking news today from my cousin about her sister, her marriage is off! because her boyfriend cheated on her, he liked another girl because tt another girl liked him. all the marriage thing is off! heh!
Yesterday i was at the polyclinic having a heart checkup, the doctor still told me that my heartbeat is slower than normal.i couldnt really sleep last night, because each time when i lie on one side of my body, i would have problem breathing. heh!! the kind of feeling is that my chest would feel very tight n uneasy that i have to sleep normally lying on the bed on my back. heh!!
my dad is not happy with me for having heart problems, its like i want to have heart problems righttttt?!!?!! CRAZY!! sometimes i dont wanna go home, because im fearful of going home of him being angry with me and all...why doesnt my dad like me?!?!?! this is something that i am still unable to find out from him. Dont tell me,im your precious because thats just a piece of lie. Dont tell me something which you fail to show it to me,because all these years..you have failed to show me that u love me enough as a daughter. im sorry that ive to say this, but what im saying is a fact of all this time u have been showing me thru your actions n words! well, why did you even bother to listen to your mother that mummy was not allowed to go for abortion? u obeyed because she's your MOTHER, not because you truly love me. if you dont love me, just tell me straight in the face, no need to everytime through ur actions and words, always so hurting to people. one last qn on my mind, WHY ARE YOU LIKE THAT?!?!?!? DO YOU DISLIKE/HATE ME SO MUCH? DO YOU REALLY WISHED THAT I WASNT AROUND?!
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